I recently confessed to a friend that it feels like my life is in a whirlwind spiral and I’m being sucked to the bottom. I’m a creature of habit and I prefer a nice, steady pace of things. I like things to always be in their designated spaces and I don’t like to defer from a routine schedule too much. If I do defer, I prefer to have it planned.
Lately, that hasn’t been the case. I’ve been dying (no, not literally!) to watch my daughter play softball. She’s been out for a little over a month now with a strained muscle injury in her back. I’m getting very anxious about getting her back on that field. I love to watch her and the team play, and here we are, in her NEXT TO LAST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL… and she’s on the IR List. Painful! Plus, she finally also committed to giving the quarter another try in track and field… and she’s on the IR List. Each game and meet that passes without her participating in the competition makes me feel that we both have missed out on something. There’s only a certain number of these competitions left for her, and here she is, watching them go by. They’re not waiting on her to recover. What really makes me anxious is that I feel her chances of any athletic scholarship are wasting away each day that she’s on the IR List. Instead, of softball games and track meets, my last few weeks have been filled with X-Rays, MRIs, doctor appointments and co-payments. I am yearning the steady stream of competition and evening road trips.
Then, there’s my daddy! He’s 67-years-young and within the last 60 days, he’s made two trips to the heart specialty hospital to have stints put in. This last time, they also found an abdominal aneurysm. Thankfully, it’s something that the doctors feel needs to only be monitored for now. But, still. I’m scared. When I look into my future, Dad is supposed to be here a minimum of 28 more years. After all, that’s how long we were blessed with his dad’s presence.
Is it too much to ask for everyone to be healthy? The lack of routine, the uncertainty, the unknown, the mere possibility of bleakness makes me nervous. Did I mention I’m a creature of habit and I prefer a nice, steady pace of things. I just need things to happen the way I have them pictured in my head.
Until next time, be positive, be happy, be healthy, and don’t forget to be photographed.
I started Ata-Girl Photography Co. in 2010 and I am one of the premier San Antonio wedding photographers who is available for local and destination weddings. In addition to wedding photography, I also specialize in high school seniors and family portraits in San Antonio and the surrounding areas. I am a professional photographer who enjoys documenting the important milestones and captivating moments in people’s lives. I firmly believe that the unique set of circumstances I have faced in life has prepared me to take a personal and genuine interest in my photography clients. When I’m not photographing a wedding, family or high school senior, I enjoy watching my daughter play softball, hiking, cycling and listening to Elvis!