In most Slavic languages, Easter means “Great Day.” It is always a great day when I get a great shot. Sometimes, I capture the most amazing image I’ve ever pressed a shutter button for. I raise my camera, place my eye next to the viewfinder, follow the action, and release the shutter. I then bring my camera down to review the image and I’m totally amazed by what I captured. It’s the same feeling I get when I stumble upon an arrowhead, reel in a big fish or discover a great burger joint. It’s dopamine for my brain!
Then… (insert long pause) there are times when I take a picture (or look back at a picture) and I’m like, “What is that? Who took that? Really?? THAT is what I captured?” My level of confidence quickly dives into the negative zone. Self-doubt creeps in. I question my skill… my art. I interrogate my knowledge. I feel yucky! I ask myself why have I spent so much time and money on this hobby-turned-business. Do I dare deserve to continue?
I think it’s perfectly natural to occasionally doubt yourself. I think the yucky pictures are just subliminal messages to remind myself to keep working hard at my art. They remind me to constantly improve my skill. It reminds me I still have a lot of stuff to learn. And, it makes me eager to improve. I get excited all over again! My confidence level begins to gradually increase.
Then, I get a GREAT DAY picture like this!! I’m good again. Dopamine is on board.
Happy Easter, everyone! I hope you’re having a GREAT DAY and getting to spend the day with loved ones and/or family! I am; I am blessed! 🙂
P.S. If all goes as planned today, I’ll also be taking some baby bump pictures!
I started Ata-Girl Photography Co. in 2010 and I am one of the premier San Antonio wedding photographers who is available for local and destination weddings. In addition to wedding photography, I also specialize in high school seniors and family portraits in San Antonio and the surrounding areas. I am a professional photographer who enjoys documenting the important milestones and captivating moments in people’s lives. I firmly believe that the unique set of circumstances I have faced in life has prepared me to take a personal and genuine interest in my photography clients. When I’m not photographing a wedding, family or high school senior, I enjoy watching my daughter play softball, hiking, cycling and listening to Elvis!